I'm just fine.

just. fine.

• No one in my family has passed away.
• I am not getting divorced.
• I am not going through a breakup.
• The love of my life isn't halfway across the country stuck on an army base.
• My friends care about me.
• I have a car. A house. A job. An education.
• I'm learning to do the thing I love most in the world.
• I get to go to NYC in 15 days and go to professional theatre productions.
• My dog loves me.
• My family loves me whether or not I disappoint them.
• I am healthy. Weak in some places, but overall- healthy.
• While I am not seeing anyone, I've at least been kissed within the last 6 months.
• I've grown as a performer to a place I never really expected to be. 

so why is it, that despite all these things, these things that prove i'm just fine, why is it i still feel like something isnt right? that something is missing? that everything isn't really just fine?

but really...