Life is Pandemonium

Some days you feel like you're in a rut, and you have weird guilt and anxiety about nothing. You wish you were one place, and then thinking about being there makes you want to punch things. And you're tired and ache-y and restless, and you feel like you want to quit everything and move to someplace where you don't know a soul.

And then.

• Your roommate buys you the most DELICIOUS cupcake and surprises you with it mid-day
• Your 'Daily Tarot' app on your phone provides some insane insight.
• You go to the Chiropractor and laugh and talk to the people there and your body gets adjusted and aligned again.
• You get to talk with your best friend who lives in San Diego about audition pieces and theatre and your upcoming trip to visit him.
• You veg out in front of the TV being introduced to Gossip Girls while enjoying wine and stuffed peppers. 
• You are surprised by a friend with some interesting prospects that leave you feeling excited and nervous and giddy all at once.

Which just goes to show- that life can be random and unfair, but the pandemonium is what makes it oh so totally worth it.

2015: My 'Hashtags'

#BeSoft2015

I will not be hard. I will not hate. I will not be bitter.

I DO still find the world to be a beautiful place. 

And I'm going to remember that, and I'm going to work on 'Softness' all year long.

Softness, kindness, patience, reflection.

Opening myself up to beauty and love.

It's also likely that I'm getting the words "Be Soft" tattooed on my wrist. 

like. soon.

very soon.

#Fancy

"I may have been born just plain white trash, but Fancy was'a'my name!"

Randall and I have decided this is also the year of "Fancy." There is something just the most fierce about this song. About a young girl who took control of her life and pulled herself up. So I'm going to be Fancy, I'm going to be fierce, I'm going to remember where I came from and how it helped me get to where I am. I'm going to aspire to be Reba and Kelly. 

#DontLetMeDown