This is what it's about.

I work very hard at what I do. I have this ache, this passion, to be a performer. I want to sing, act, and attempt to dance my way to a blissful life. I base 90% of my decisions on this need. I buy clothing that I can either wear to a dance class/rehearsal or audition. I try and eat/drink responsibly in order to keep my instrument working properly. I even got a job with a company who can transfer me to more lucrative theatre cities when the time comes, and who can be flexible with rehearsal/tech schedules. I chose to get tattoos, but I chose tattoos that would very rarely be a problem for theatrical productions/auditions/jobs. I've adjusted my attitude on life to be one that puts the world in a positive light, making it easier to connect to people onstage and off. I take what I do seriously, it's an uphill climb every day, but its one that I love and appreciate.

Therefore, it is hard for me, when I'm working so hard to be a positive, responsible, focused actor to have even one person seem to take what we do lightly. And when I'm running on very little sleep (due to theatre related homework), and wearing a corset and an incredibly tight wig, it's likely that any ounce of pretentiousness, conceitedness, ignorance, apathy, etc., will thoroughly frustrate me.

It is in these moments that I am grateful for other responsible, focused, passionate, gracious, aware, caring theatre people who surround me. I am grateful to know that I've built a close circle of brilliant actors, technicians, friends, who are always there to remind me that tomorrow is another day, and that my frustrations are not without merit.

Tonight those people included Shawnee, Karrie, Ashley, Maddie, Kelsie, Trevor, Trent, Shelby. They are just a few of the professional, loving humans that I'm lucky enough to be surrounded by.

Tomorrow is a new day. Tomorrow things will look alright. Tomorrow I will still be kind, important, and driven. Tomorrow will be great.