Thursday, December 29, 2011

Em-Eye-See-Kay-Ee-Why Em-Oh-You-Ess-Ee

MICKEY MOUSE!

This year's Christmas gift from Mommy was a trip to DISNEYLAND!
We drove all day on the 23rd and made it in plenty of time to go to dinner at Downtown Disney after checking in at the

Our view of California Adventure from the hotel room. We had an upgraded family suite! 

It was an incredible trip, beautiful weather, fun rides, good food, character greetings, so much fun.

Here's some photo-documentation of the trip:


 
Porter got to do the Jedi Training Academy and fought Darth Maul!

Sleeping Beauty's Castle all lit up for Christmas

It was my birthday!!


Ariel's Undersea Adventure, went twice. She's my favorite!



Porter and Melissa as Toy Story Action Figures!

BIRTHDAY MINNIE MOUSE!
This guy looked like Josh Groban with a mustache, it was trippy.
He was EVERYWHERE... and married, i checked for the ring. :(


Mint Juleps and Mickey Mouse Beignets- Delish.


MOUSEKETEERS! <3

It was an amazing holiday adventure. We loved the parks, despite the INSANE amount of people at Disneyland on Christmas Day. We ate at Ariel's Grotto on Christmas Eve and at the Cafe Orleans on Christmas day. I bought an Ariel TShirt, pins, a birthday sash... too much goo.
Compared to the World of Disney, it was different. Rides were different, it was smaller, the castle is tiny in comparison to Orlando. But I liked it. I want to go again this year and experience it with less people. We didnt get to ride any of the 'Mountain' roller-coasters, or Small World, which was sad. And I didnt get to do Haunted Mansion which i Love.
BUT we did do Soarin, and Both Toy Story rides, Goofy's Flight School, Indiana Jones, Pirates, Finding Nemo, Peter Pan, Mr. Toad, Rodger Rabbit, Dumbo, Jungle Cruise... So much fun.

Disney 2011, A Christmas To Remember. 

Thursday, December 15, 2011

there's this guy.

He blew into my life last winter, working at Corbins. We came together quickly, burned real hot, real bright, real fast. And then the flame blew out, faster than it started, and after a little bit of drawn out drama, that was it. I was left with this weird situation of having cared for someone quite a bit, being hurt in a way I'd never hurt before, dealing with emotion I hadn't been quite ready for.

It's been about nine months now, and after having to quite literally grieve a relationship that had been brief but intense, I'm sitting in one of the grief stages and trying desperately to pull myself onward and upward.

Denial
Anger
Bargaining
Depression
Acceptance

Fourth Stage, welcome home. I've been feeling like something is missing lately. I know things are fine. I'm employed (times2) and I'm good at my jobs. I'm feeling more confident and secure in my skills as a performer. I have incredible friends and a loving family and an adorable doting puppy. I've been financially secure and stable all semester. Xanadu is going to ACTF. Cradle Will Rock is going to be fantastic. Things are good. And yet, I feel empty, i feel like a piece of the puzzle isn't here. I have a suspicion as to what it is, where it's coming from, why I've been so pulled towards a certain guy who briefly was a huge part of my life. He is the root of the problem, I know he is. And I've been trying to get him back into my life in any sort of small way. Using my energies to try and get him to see me. Finally seeing him at the bar, and then constantly thinking of him since then. I realized, last night, in a depressed and inebriated state, that I seem to be the only one making any sort of effort here. And I told him so.

I'm taking a step towards being okay. To trying and feeling whole again. It makes me feel weak to want him, and i hate that. Alot. So i'm going to NOT text him. I'm going to NOT try to arrange meetings. I'm going to NOT keep drinking alone. I'm going to go to work. I'm going to spend time with friends. I'm going to play with my dog. I'm going to go to Disneyland in 9 days. I'm going to try and maybe hang out with that other guy who looks like Josh Groban. I'm going to push through the empty and try and come out on the other side with some sort of handle on my life. And I'm going to be okay with everything. 

At least, I better be okay with everything.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

HEALTHSPIRATION

tips like this are usually called 'Thin-spiration', I HATE that term. I think it should be termed 'Healt-spiration,' or something similar. Either way, I stole this from pinterest, and have highlighted (and editorialized) the tips I'm going to make a goal to follow. 


1. Drink one glass of water every hour. It will make you feel full. 
2. Drink ice cold water. Your body will burn calories just getting the water to a normal temperature to digest. Also it is great for your complexion. 
3. Drink 3 cups of green tea daily. It will help boost your metabolism, plus its anti-oxidants make your skin look great. (i want to start getting the green tea HP stuff from the mall...)
 4. Take vitamins daily. Do not take vitamins on an empty stomache, otherwise they have nothing to catalyze with. 
5. Eat ice or gum when hungry. This will make your body think it had food without the calories. 6. Do aerobics until you want to faint.
 7. Eat spicy foods. They raise your metabolism. 
8. Take cold showers because your body will burn calories to heat you back up. 
9. DON’T take laxatives. They don’t help you to lose weight. 
10. DON’T use diruretics. They only dehydrate you.
 11. Brush your teeth constantly so you won’t be tempted to eat afterwards. 
12. Wear a rubberband around your wrist. Snap it when you want to eat. 
13. Clean something gross (toilet, litter box, boyfriend’s closet) when you want to eat. You will not want to eat after cleaning a litter box. 
14. Get a job so you’ll have to work through meal times. 
15 Use smaller plates and utensils so it seems like you ate more. 
16. Chew each bite of food thoroughly and then take a sip of water between bites. You will feel full quicker and will not eat as much.
 17. Buy clothes that you can’t fit into and hang them wear you can see them. This will motivate you to lose weight to fit into them.
 18. Sleep at least six hours a day. If you get less than six this can lower your metabolism by 15%. 
19. If you start to feel hungry do situps. 
20. Pamper yourself! Give yourself a facial, paint your nails, anything to make you feel pretty.
 21. Get out of your house!
 22. Keep track of everything you eat. Look at it daily for thinspiration, healthspiration
23. Keep good posture, burns 10% more calories when you sit up straight. 
24. Make a list of all the “bad” foods that you crave and tend to binge on. Each day, pick one to take out of your diet that you absolutely, no matter what, cannot eat again. Take one off the list each day until there are no more bad foods you can have. 
25. Avoid alcohol! A shot of liquor has 100-120 calories, a glass of wine has 80 calories, a lite beer has 110-120 calories, and a regular beer has 140-170 calories. 
26. Never eat anything bigger than about a cup, your stomach will expand and then you’ll get hungry more.
 27. Have 6 small meals a day. 
28. Low calorie hot chocolate curbs chocolate cravings, and makes you feel full.
 29. It takes 20 minutes for the brain to realize the stomach is full
. 30. Eat lots of fiber. It makes you feel full and takes fat with it out of your body. The natural cleansing helps improve both your energy level and overall feeling of wellness.
 31.Before you dig into that cake, bag of chips, candy, or whatever, take a deep breath and count to 100. Usually by the time you get to 100 you will have convinced yourself that you don’t really want it. (I've also heard you should count down from your current weight to your goal weight).
32. When you’re hungry chug 2 glasses (or how many you need) of straight water. It’ll make you so full
 33. Celery actually burns calories. Every hour eat a stalk of it. Not only will it fill you up, but it will also get your metabolism kickin’. 
34. Read the nutritional information. Remember, fat-free does not mean calorie-free. Also keep an eye on fiber content. Get as much fiber into your diet as you can, while cutting fat and calories.
 35. Don’t eat a lot at once. Spread your food throughout the day. This will help to avoid binging and keep your metabolism going. 
36. If you like to drink alcohol, you’ll like this. Make a rule: You can only drink every time you lose 2lbs. So, if you lose 4lbs a week, you can drink Friday and Saturday night. However, if you only lose 2lbs a week, you only get to drink one night.
 37. Do not eat in front of the computer or TV. This distracts you from recognizing you’re full. 
38. Stay away from Slim-fast and other so-called “healthy” candy bars and shakes… one look at the nutition facts will tell you why. With all the carbs and excess calories you may as well go eat a freakin pie or something. Not to mention the rediculous prices… save yourself the money, and the calories. 
39.When having cravings drink a couple glasses of water with slices of lemons and count to 100 and it should go away. 
40. Eating 100 cals 4 times a day is better than eating a 400 cal meal. 
41. An occasional binge doesn’t hurt, in fact it’s quite beneficial if you have reached a plateau (stopped losing weight). Your body will think you have stopped starving yourself, and you will drop at least a pound overnight! Just don’t binge too regularly! 


I just have been so uncomfortable in my own skin all year long. I lost a bunch of weight when I moved home to my moms and then moving out of her house put it all back on, among other reasons. 
It's time to start taking care of myself again, and being good to my body. I want to feel better, and stronger, and leaner and healthier, and prettier.
Goal for Christmas Break: Build Healthier Habits for weight-loss

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

"We all have a 'type'"

PROLOGUE- We went out for Ally Berry's 21st birthday last night and it was ridiculously fun. Keys On Main is probably my favorite bar in the state, which isn't saying much since I've been to so few of them here, but still. She was drunk, and rightfully so, and we surprised her with a visit from our long lost and soon-to-be-famous friends Grey & PJ, and everyone serenaded her through Karaoke. It was a wonderful, and well deserved, birthday for a girl who is Brilliant and Loving and Sweet and Amazing.- Guests included: Tyson, Jaron, Marc, Isaac, Carleton, Me, Shelby, Grey, and PJ.

I was really glad to get out and go drinking with everyone I love, and to spend time feeling less like a little kid and more like a big-kid. Sometimes I feel like the reason no one realizes I'm older than 20 is because my group of friends has an average age of 20, and it's hard to be all... grownupish. Idk. Whatever, Last night was wonderful, and fun, and I got to see friends I rarely see, and I found myself interested in someone for the first time in a while.

See, this spring was more than a little difficult on my love-life. After a breakup that made me assert myself in a way I never have before, and then some physical set-backs that knocked my confidence down a few notches, I havent found myself feeling interested in anyone romantically at all. That's not to say I havent wanted to be with someone, I just haven't felt like anyone was attractive or butterfly inducing. I've been in this weird situation of sometimes crippling loneliness that has no outlet because there is no one specific I've wanted to be with. It's been incredibly frustrating. SO- last night at the bar when I found myself drawn to this guy, it was nice to feel that way again. Nice to have those twitterpated feelings, to want to be flirty, to try and catch his interest. It was fun. We'd met before, a few times actually, but never really spent any time together, and last night we got to know each other a teeny tiny bit more. He sang karaoke, and suggested the PERFECT song for me to sing. Things were fun. Things were interesting, but all the while I knew, that this was just me falling into the same old trap. Because this fun and flirty guy is JUST LIKE the last 3 guys I've been associated with. He's a video-game-aholic, and he's a recreational drugs kindof guy. He's not the healthiest of crushes for me, and I knew that before he and I even started talking, and yet... 

I still find myself wanting to facebook stalk him, and trying to figure out how to hang out with him again without seeming all weird and crush-y. It's not smart or healthy at all. And while I'm glad that my hormones and confidence and brain are letting me feel this way again, I just wish it was towards someone a bit less like all the other guys I've dated. A friend of mine said that we all have a type... and I'm wondering why it is that every guy I'm physically interested in tends to also be the kindof guy who doesnt have his shit together.



This is a problem. How do I fix it?

Friday, December 2, 2011

XANA-TREE and Fallen Tree.

XANA-TREE!

You neon lights will shine for you, Xanadu!!

Disco Ball Ornaments!
Pink and Tinsel and Programs... We win!
SOOO Taylor and Austin found out that Myself and Katrina and Shelby werent going to have a Christmas tree.
So what do they do? 
Borrow a tree from the props hall (Jingle Jacks, anyone?)
Buy Hobby Lobby Christmas ornaments
Find a bunch of programs from the show
and Magically appear at our house with Christmas decor in tow
Bringing us a XANA-TREE!
It kindof looks like the 80s and Mardi-Graw threw up on our tree a little bit.
but we love it! <3

now, onto the
FALLEN TREE
That's our large Pine Tree that used to stand up straight.
And that's our house peeking out from underneath it on the left there...
Yeah.
Woke up this morning to high winds,
Katrina expressed a concern that our tree might fall onto the house
I assured her it was too old and strong to fall on our house.
We left for school
And when I got home after classes had been cancelled this is what I found.
EEEK!
My poor Buster was having the biggest panic attack when I got inside,
The poor thing had no idea what was going on, and was just terrified. 
Luckily the tree didnt break any windows, or break through the roof-
it was much too tall for that!
The tree crew did get there today and Katrina said they removed the left half of the tree
Apparently there is some significant damage to our front stoop, and I'm sure the roof has some damage also.
Our backyard fence was also blown down, which makes me nervous for Buster.
But,
 I'm hoping when the landlord addresses that issue I can maybe see if he'll fence the rest of the yard, 
or at least 
enclose it from behind the garage, so that I can leave Buster outside for longer periods of time.
It was quite a stressful adventure, but our house still stands, so that is lucky.
I'm just glad we were all safe
and the pets were all safe (Katrina's Bird weathered the day without heat!)
and that the worst we'll have to pay for as renters is buying curtains for the front window
(because the Tree won't hide us anymore!) 
:-P