I need:

• new friends:
  i have amazing friends, talented, funny, entertaining, intelligent friends. but the ones i know i can trust and count on and who wont behave like 14yr old children when it comes to life and maturity can fit in maybe one or two hands. My Shelby, Katrina, Landon, Tia, Randall, Mikell, Lydia, Cheyvonne, Sara, Collette.... that's 10, and 5 of them don't live anywhere near me. I need to widen my circle of people worth knowing. People who will have my back and know what's appropriate and will behave like the adults we are supposed to be.... 
• a new car:
  scariest moment of my life tonight. Driving down Harrison towards 89 on my way to work at Corbin's i realize i'm driving a bit fast so i lift my foot of the gas pedal, and the car continues to accelerate. Pressing the gas was difficult because the engine just continued to rev and resist the pressure of the brakes on my tires. I was panicking, and just at that moment my mother called, i'm sure with something completely unrelated to discuss, and was able to coach me into pulling off the side of the road and getting the car stopped. When in neutral and park the engine just revs uncontrollably, and when in gear it just motors the car forward. It was too late to get the car to my mechanic, but I have the whole day off tomorrow so I can get up and get it to the shop asap. the frustrating part is that this will be the third time in 4-5 months that it'll be back in the shop.... i'm exhausted by this damn car.
• motivation to pack my room:
  as excited as i am to move, i cannot find the mojo to get off my ass and pack. i'm hoping that once we have a place locked down to move into that i'll feel justified in packing and i can just speed through it.
• florida:
  its been since 2009 since i've set foot in The Sunshine State, and i need its healing powers DESPERATELY in my life. being broke is lame, because all i want to do is hop a jet to Orlando for a few days, even if its just to see the people I love and lay by a pool somewheres. A photo-shoot with Col wouldn't hurt either.
• money:
  waiting till financial aid hits is going to suck. too many bills/fines/citations to pay between now and september. blahhh.
• optimism:
  'nough said.

i could use a little help
i could use a little hope
i could use a little

miracle