Things I do NOT miss

the holidays are an emotional mine field. these are all things i don't have to put up with anymore. and haven't had to put up with or deal with for months now, and i'm listing them so that i can remember that i'm better off in the long run.

• spending evenings sitting on uncomfortable couches watching other people play video games.
• sitting on the floor to watch movies on the hi-def/3D/surround sound system that cost more money than it was worth
• trying to fall asleep in an ice-box of a bedroom while curled up trying to stay warm
• visiting davis county more often than having visits made to SLC
• spending money on and drinking exorbitant amounts of shitty hard apple cider instead of real beer. 
• hanging out with only people who i know through someone else, and not with my own people.
• feeling badly that i want intimacy more frequently
• awkward family dinners trying be entertaining and friendly to obnoxious, spoiled, younger siblings who aren't mine
• keeping my emotional outbursts to myself because i dont want to remind anyone of their crazy ex
• swallowing my thoughts and emotions because fighting is the worst and i dont like fighting or want to potentially cause a fight

*sigh* I am strong. I am smart. I am important. I am better off.....