My thoughts undo me...

"It's always this time of year that my thoughts undo me,

with the ghosts of many lifetimes all around.

But from theses mad heights I can always hear the sound

of the bells of New York City singing all around."

I'm in a funky place. The onset of the Holidays always does that to me. I get nostalgic and melancholy and lonely... and I overthink every little thing. It makes me ache to be somewhere other than where I am. I'm itching to be in Florida or New York, anywhere that isn't stagnant and routinely familiar like Utah has become. While I love the air of family and love and warmth that this season inspires, I tend to get lost in a jungle of emotions that is less than festive. Maybe its seasonal depression to some degree... who knows.

What I do know is that I'm moody and often anxious and unmotivated and confused. And It's time to start making bigger steps towards moving away from the same old stagnant life I'm currently stuck in. There's a light on the horizon, I just have to power through and get there...

To the Horizon...