A Month of Thanks

This month on the Book of Face I committed to posting at least one thing I was grateful for every day. Here's the list:

1. My friends
2. My parents
3. Laughter
4. My Theatre Family at Weber
5. A Cancelled class
6. The Opportunity to cast my vote for President, and for huge piles of leaves to jump in.
7. Buster Brown
8. Coffee
9. Soup & Biscuits, and mom gave me $5
10. Beautiful snow that did not stick to the pavement
11. Starting a new job at SLAC
12. The men and women who serve in our military
13. My small and humble bed
14. Warm running water
15. For naps
16. For Friday, and for Weber's own Dumbledore and McGonagal
17. Cuddles on the couch with PJ and breakfast with him and Missy. And for a night to play with friends.
18. Cold cereal, Starbucks, Lunch with good friends.
19. That my muggle job makes me love my SLAC job ten times more. And for 4 classes till thanksgiving break.
20. For a body that moves when I ask it to.
21. Sleeping in and Coffee with the Roomies
22. Mashed potatoes & Gravy, family time, naps
23. Being confident in my chosen Career path.
24. For TCC, Tally, and my adopted school pride for FSU.
25. Friends who take care of me, and for all the fun we have together.
26. Mikell
27. Guy-friends
28. For Willie who took me to see PTC's A Christmas Carol
29. For no snow!

Tomorrow I shall probably say something about being grateful for one more week of classes in my college career. I have loved being positive and posting things Im glad about on the web. Sometimes I feel like we let our social media voices be far too negative. We use FB and Twitter as our outlets for the grumpy stuff, which is fine, but sometimes we forget to use them as outlets for the happy things as well. I'm a firm believer in being as positive as possible, because you never know how your posts will effect someone else's day.

This month has FLOWN by, and I can't believe that in two weeks from tomorrow I will be a college graduate and I will be headed towards making my way in the world of Theatre. Its quite the surreal idea, but something really exciting. I'm so ready to be moving forward and towards something new. I'm auditioning for Death of a Salesman at The Grand this weekend, and then I'll be looking to try and be in either Les Mis at Pioneer or Voyeur at SLAC. Hopefully one of those two will pan out and I can get some semi-pro credits on my resume before I peace-out for greener pastures. 

gahhhh. i'm so excited for life right now.... :D

What's Left:

• This fashion comparison notebook that i'm avoiding working on
• 3 (yes three) short papers for English due by Friday. (two of these are overdue... )
• Yoga Journal (gotta make up a bunch-a-crap... uggghh)
• Go to a Yoga class off campus
• Final English paper
• Dance showings
• 5 sketches for Costume History
• Music Theory Final (I should probably review my listening stuff... and chord structures... guhh)
• Potentially a test/project for Costume History... she hasnt decided yet

19 days. 19 days i say. That's all I have left till graduation. And the only things between me and that cap and gown are on that list up there.. that's all that's left of my College career... and though it's really not much, I'M DYING because my motivation is non-existant at the moment. I'm just so ready to be through with all of it that I'm checking out two weeks early. No bueno.

But it's really not that much... I can do this.

My thoughts undo me...

"It's always this time of year that my thoughts undo me,

with the ghosts of many lifetimes all around.

But from theses mad heights I can always hear the sound

of the bells of New York City singing all around."

I'm in a funky place. The onset of the Holidays always does that to me. I get nostalgic and melancholy and lonely... and I overthink every little thing. It makes me ache to be somewhere other than where I am. I'm itching to be in Florida or New York, anywhere that isn't stagnant and routinely familiar like Utah has become. While I love the air of family and love and warmth that this season inspires, I tend to get lost in a jungle of emotions that is less than festive. Maybe its seasonal depression to some degree... who knows.

What I do know is that I'm moody and often anxious and unmotivated and confused. And It's time to start making bigger steps towards moving away from the same old stagnant life I'm currently stuck in. There's a light on the horizon, I just have to power through and get there...

To the Horizon...

Relating a little too well to this right now.

I mean really though. I'm such a Chandler.

I can do that.

So tonight I went to see The Addams Family on tour at The Capital Theatre. I love seeing musicals I don't know very well, it's an opportunity to find potential roles/productions that I may be auditioning for. And it's fun to see something new, like going to the movies, but better because it's live. This show was so ridiculously silly, very fun. Andrew Lippa did the score, and he's just so good. The music is fantastic. Its a much more pared down score than the one on the recording, alot of the songs on the soundtrack were not in the show, but I think that's a good thing. I think my favorite part was the Ancestor characters which made up the ensemble, and Uncle Fester was brilliant, and Gomez, Wednesday and Alice were all incredible as well. 

My new favorite thing to do when going to these touring shows, or when I saw shows in NYC this past spring, is watch and see what the choreography is like, listen to the vocal lines, and compare myself to the performers. It's been incredibly exciting to realize that I am not unrealistic in my dreams of being on stage professionally. Watching the show last night I focused a lot on the Ancestor Ensemble, and the majority of the dancing numbers were not out of my skill-set. It was a realization I needed last night. I was having a "what am I doing with my life" kindof day, feeling a bit unsure of myself and my goals. But last night at the show I was reminded that the performers on tour and on Broadway are just people, like me, who are passionate about being onstage. One of my favorite people in the cast coughed onstage during one of her songs, I also saw an ensemble member cough, and I love that. It's live theatre, nothing is perfect, and that's what makes it great. 

And Yeah,

I can do that.

:-D