Tuesday, July 31, 2012

CHARM

"...We are spiritual beings as much as we are flesh and blood, and we are seekers - it is our duty as human beings not to have all the right answers, but to keep asking the right questions." -Kathleen Cahill 

We had our first read-through and meeting as a cast last night and I am finally feeling more excited than scared about the production of Charm that we are doing this fall at school. I love our cast, and after hearing everything brought to life by the voices of my incredibly talented friends it feels real finally. Its going to be an incredibly challenging process, and working with Tracy will be something that I'm sure will work every intellectual and physical and emotional muscle in my body, but it feels like an experience that overall will be incredibly rewarding. This play is magical, and there is so much  heart and humor and poetry within the script that I can't wait to see come to life with this group of people.  We're going to have the opportunity to work with Kathleen and bring her words and her world to life and that is an opportunity you don't get often in a collegiate setting. But it's thrilling, and terrifying all at the same time. I need something like that right now, because this summer has turned into an endless, droning, inane time. Its time for a little magic in my world. 

"I think the theatre should offer a world you've never seen before and can't experience anywhere else." - Kathleen Cahill

Friday, July 20, 2012

sometimes

you take a bubble-bath and drink wine and watch Mean Girls

sometimes you drink more wine in a night than you probably should

sometimes you work two shifts at your new job and love how busy it is

sometimes you watch Labyrinth at 1am with your Matt because neither of you can sleep.

sometimes you realize your hometown isn't where you grew up

sometimes you'd rather be in your hometown than anywhere else in the world


Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Time for Change

For the last three years of my life I've been working for a locally owned restaurant named Corbin's Grille. I have been relatively happy working there, my co-workers have become good friends and I have been able to enjoy myself and make a decent enough living working there.

But as I've starting thinking ahead towards graduation, and about how I'm going to survive once I'm no longer eligible for student loans, I've decided I need something a little more.... consistent. As much as I've loved my privately owned place of employment, they are small and unknown and the business is incredibly inconsitent. Summer months, especially, are slow as tar, and I'm not sure I could continue to make the kindof money necessary to live even my simple life and save up for a move to anywhere but here. So I applied to work at The Olive Garden, and was lucky enough to get hired!

I started training yesterday and I'm already exhausted. Two days of an endless stream of information that we're supposed to memorize. EXHAUSTING. But they feed us, and i'm getting paid minimum wage to learn this stuff for 7-8 hours a day for the whole week, so I can't complain too much. The business at Olive Garden, though it will vary like any restaurant, tends to be much more consistent. There are always people eating there, any time of day, any day of the year. Also, I'm working at the location on Riverdale Road, which is a mere 10-15 minute drive from home, as opposed to the 20-30 minute drive it takes to get to Corbin's. So even if I don't necessarily start out making more money, i'll be saving money on gas, which is a bonus in and of itself.

Another benefit for working for a chain restaurant like Olive Garden is that there are transfer opportunities. SO, if in a year I decide I want to move to Orlando, or New York, or Chicago, or LA, there will be an Olive Garden that potentially I could easily transfer to and have a built-in job. I'm also more likely/eligible for hire at any other Darden restaurant, most of which originated in Orlando (where I'm starting to feel like I need to be for a bit once I'm done here). I also am eligible for benefits, health and dental and vision insurance. These are things that in a year I will no longer be able to get through my parents, and if things continue the way they have with my dad's rocky employment status, I might as well get my own now.

It won't be the best place to work, i'm sure, but I'm way overdue for a change. I've been unhappy at my current job for a while; even though I love my co-workers, the place itself holds alot of not great memories, and there are things about the job that aren't much fun anymore. It has lost it's charm, I've become jaded and cynical about the place, and that doesnt lead to a good work experience. Conversely, in the last few weeks I have re-discovered my love for what I do. Its not what I want to do forever, but I do love serving. Working in the dining industry is insanely rewarding if you're doing your job right. I'm excited to get comfortable at The OG and start getting down to business making some moneys and delivering quality service to my guests. 


Anyways. Change is good. I'm looking towards the future and making plans for the school year and afterwards and thinking positively as often as possible. It's tricky at night sometimes. But I do my best. 


In other news. Weddings and the like, Matchmaking, Talented Friends in Fun Theatre. But I've already rambled enough, so I'll just say goodnight. <3

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Limbo

Living in limbo. Summer always does this to me. I tell myself I'm looking forward to the break and then...

I get restless. I've already been on vacation, I've been in a show, I've been working and trying to manage my money.

But for whatever reason, there's this anxiety lurking over me, edging me to do something- but I have no idea what. I've been trying to prepare for CHARM, but because the stage manager hasn't given me my official script it's rather difficult (don't even get me started about our SM...). I wanted to see my friends and hang by the pool and have a ridiculously wonderfully lazy summer, but I'm staying at my mother's to save money on gas and therefore I'm having a terribly boring lazy summer. Plus, everyone is busy being in shows and living in Salt Lake and i'm just here like "Oh, hello midnight quesadilla, will you be my friend?"

I'm out of it. I'm lonely and anxious and oh so ready to just start this semester and get it over with so I can move on with my life. Utah is so stagnant, and dull, and I need to be somewhere that brings me joy and life and light and energy.