on relationships

Relationships have been on the brain lately.

Some good friends of mine broke up recently, and I've had both of them on my mind, because I know how hard it is for a long term relationship to suddenly cease to exist.

In the midst of all these thoughts, I realized

I have been single for 7 months.

That's the longest single stretch I've had in over two years.

Mike and I got together in April of '08 and broke up July '09

Then Brandon and I had July '09-September '09

James, Feb '10- July '10

Aaron, Nov '10-Dec'10

Roki, Jan '10- March'10

....

Yeah. The biggest gap since April of 2008 has been 5 months, and I've surpassed that by two.

Which, I keep telling myself, isn't a bad thing.
I shouldnt need to be with someone to feel whole.

I know I should be able to feel like a complete, functioning individual on my own.

I don't need a boy. 

But I want one.

Flip side of that-

I'm not really interested in anyone right now.

Really. 

Which means I revert to old boys.

Not healthy.

And yeah. Blah.

So, I'm kindof a mess.

like

90% of the time

but you'd never know it.

But I can bet you,

by the end of November, 

This girl will have had a breakdown.

Just you wait, Henry Higgins, Just you wait.