senior/hormone/tired-itis

why is it that whenever i sit down to start doing homework i end up spending hours and hours and hours of time doing mindless internet bullshit?

hmmmm????

 i don't know either.

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School is terrifying me. 

It's only week four and I don't want to do anything

except go to rehearsal

and sleep

and laugh alot with my friends.

NOT GOOD.

I need to get organized

and on target

and stuff.

ALSO

we did our degree audits today in Jr. Seminar

and I'm terrified as to how I'm going to get the next two semesters done and finished and

yeah.

I really want to be done next December so that I can work for some months

then

audition for a cruise or apply for an internship

and either go sailing and performing

or move to NYC to learn and create and work.

That is what should happen. 

I hope I can make this work.

I should maybe try to focus a bit more.

everything just is scattered in my world right now. even though I still feel more "clicked" into place, as I mentioned in a recent entry, I'm kindof emotionally unstable lately. Up and down and back and forth and all over the charts. It's been kindof abrupt mood-swings too. I'm hoping it's just because I'm dealing with hormones for this week and then I'll be back to normal happy me, but I'm just not sure. I'm trying to focus on the positives.

Xanadu
Roommates
Buster
Friends

if i can keep reminding myself of these four goodnesses, and try to push out the vampires of despair that start to plague me on the regular, then I may be able to focus in on the shit I need to get done. right?

Right.

Time for homework.