Truly living on lattes.

Working at my new job at Caffe Cafe is definitely going to either be really good for my body or really bad. I've been training at the mall location this week, and I LOVE it. I'm really hoping she'll let me work there most of my shifts, because it's so much more entertaining. AND I don't have to deal with food service really, except for cupcakes and croissants and stuff. The thing is, I get free coffee at work. :D Anyone who knows me knows that my one true addiction is coffee, and that drinking it for free will save me money, but if I don't watch myself may up my daily calories. Today I made my drink (a SKIM Dirty Chocolate Chai, with two shots in the twelve ounce cup) and it was so yummy I grabbed one similar to it at Barnes and Noble this afternoon, but I forgot to have them make it skinny, and since the Starbucks coffee joints don't have the chocolate chai powder it was with the chocolate syrup. So yeah... there's that. AND If I eat breakfast before going into work then my metabolism goes into like hyper-drive and I feel like I have to eat all damn day. And i don't shop with small meals in mind, so I end up eating wayyyy too much food. Not okay. I know it's important to eat breakfast, and healthy and all that jazz, but I just... ugh. I'm so uncomfortable with myself lately, and there's alot of factors as to why I've put back on the weight I'd previously lost, but I'm desperate to figure out an easy way to maintain my control and get rid of the blubber.

This week I'm working every weekday morning/day shift at the Cafe (and sunday), and though I gave up tonight, I'm scheduled for every night except Wednesday at Corbin's. It's only Tuesday and I'm exhausted. Today when I got to work I couldn't stop yawning, drank like two sips of my diry chai and felt awake. ADDICTION? ADDICTION. This is me, living life on lattes.


So our sink is broken at the house. The disposal doesnt work, and the drain will not drain because of it. So only one side of the sink will drain, and the whole kitchen smells. And there are still dishes from Cinco de Drinko in the sink, and I want to wash the crock-pot, but I can't get to the side of the sink that drains to wash it, so it's just sitting, and stinking. :P The urge to move out of the house where people are content to live this way has NEVER EVER been stronger. I just... don't enjoy being at home alot of the time, because it is gross. And I feel like alot of our house-mates just don't care that it's disgusting, and it thoroughly annoys me. Alot. I don't like feeling icky when I'm at home, and I just do when I'm here. August can't come soon enough, I'm so looking forward to a clean house with Shelby and Katrina.

Been in a country music mood lately. I created a Miranda Lambert radio station on my Pandora and it's amazing. I've heard so many of her songs that I hadn't heard before. I freaking love me some Miranda Lambert. 

Rain on the window makes me lonely
And time keeps passing so slowly
The old man sittin' next to me is fallin' asleep
On a Greyhound bound for nowhere.

I mean... really? Yes. Everything the woman writes just hits me, either in that Strong Powerful Woman kinda way, or in the Deep Emotional Heartache kinda way. She's just so real. I want to find out when/if she's touring and go see her. ASAP. Also, I've decided if I ever go out to do karaoke that my song needs to be her "Gunpowder and Lead". Seriously.

Okay. Bed, I have to be at the mall again tomorrow at 8:30, but then I'm off at 11, and home for the whole day. Possibly going to be the most desperately lonely girl and hang out with a guy who I only really like for the physical chemistry and the way he occasionally can make me laugh. Mostly he annoys me, but he wants to hang out, and I might just be that desperate for guy time.... I also might attempt to re-connect with a certain former hook-up who might possibly be related to someone who i may or may not have dated..... Me and my good life choices hard at work here, folks. I need to meet some new people and stop being so lame. :P