And in this Crazy Life...

Oh my lordy I've been all over the place.

Last week was work work work, play play play, work, play harder. Exhausting. Went out dancing Saturday night with some friends, we went to Metro and had a blast, then after-partied at a friend of Gray's. So fun. I stayed out FAR too late however, not making that mistake again. Also, this week will be a little less party and a hell of a lot more worky. I'm working close to, if not more than, 60hr this week between the two jobs. Exhausting, but hopefully it'll pay off in the long run. More hours=bigger paycheck/more tips. We'll see. I cant even begin to fathom how tired I'm going to be by Sunday.

Picked up a box of this:

Mostly because I'm hoping that alot of the extra lbs I've been packing around is just water weight and other bleck. So I figure, do a body detox thing for two weeks, see how it works, and then go from there with the diet and exercise thing. If it gives me some kindof boost towards positive weight management it can't hurt, and its all natural ingredients so I'm not wary of it at all. I'm only on day two, so I'll keep you posted. 

Met some crazy awesome people in the last week or so. Gray's friends, mostly: His friend Daniel, who works as an understudy in Vegas in Holly Maddison's PeepShow. (Two degrees of separation to Hugh Hefner, folks. :D ), also his friend Aaron who is adorable and hopefully interested in maybe spending some time together. Blake had a friend in town from DC named Lauren who was amazing and funny and I'm so glad I got to know her. 

  

Me, Blakey, Lauren after our night on the town.

Jesse, Aaron and Gray being the Straight Boys.

Ally, Me, Ben, Lauren, Amanda. Sexy Bitches.

Blake, Daniel, PJ, and Ben being all sexy and shit.
(The Gays at Gray's)

So yeah. Life is insanity right now. I'm flip flopping my emotions ALOT lately, been really positive one day, and glass-half-empty the next. But it's going. I'm surviving. Looking forward to the day my Shebby gets home (GIRL I MISS YOUR FACE LIKE NO ONE KNOWS), and hoping that next week's work schedule isnt quite so insane. Also hoping the goddamn rain and clounds go away and that we can get some sunny weather up in this joint. The May Rainstorms are pissing me off, big time. Okay, I'm off to my second job of the day- wish me luck on tips and easy sidework tonight- NO banquets to set up, please please please!

randomness.

and... yes.

right now: drinking with Randall Eames and Erica Choffel. Love it. Except for the SUUUUPER in-depth theatrical analysis we're having of each other and our department at weber. I'm not sober enough for that.

I miss my Shelby. She hasnt even been out of the country a week. This is either a GREAT sign for us living together soon or not so much.

Katrina is also out of town. I miss her.

I smoked too much last night and woke up half an hour after i was supposed to be at work. NO BUENO. So I got there by 9:20, opened, and survived a whole shift by myself. Win. Apparently, the mall store is closing soon... :( sadface. BUT its all good.

I made awesome personal life choices this week. Seriously.

okay. i'm out.

Truly living on lattes.

Working at my new job at Caffe Cafe is definitely going to either be really good for my body or really bad. I've been training at the mall location this week, and I LOVE it. I'm really hoping she'll let me work there most of my shifts, because it's so much more entertaining. AND I don't have to deal with food service really, except for cupcakes and croissants and stuff. The thing is, I get free coffee at work. :D Anyone who knows me knows that my one true addiction is coffee, and that drinking it for free will save me money, but if I don't watch myself may up my daily calories. Today I made my drink (a SKIM Dirty Chocolate Chai, with two shots in the twelve ounce cup) and it was so yummy I grabbed one similar to it at Barnes and Noble this afternoon, but I forgot to have them make it skinny, and since the Starbucks coffee joints don't have the chocolate chai powder it was with the chocolate syrup. So yeah... there's that. AND If I eat breakfast before going into work then my metabolism goes into like hyper-drive and I feel like I have to eat all damn day. And i don't shop with small meals in mind, so I end up eating wayyyy too much food. Not okay. I know it's important to eat breakfast, and healthy and all that jazz, but I just... ugh. I'm so uncomfortable with myself lately, and there's alot of factors as to why I've put back on the weight I'd previously lost, but I'm desperate to figure out an easy way to maintain my control and get rid of the blubber.

This week I'm working every weekday morning/day shift at the Cafe (and sunday), and though I gave up tonight, I'm scheduled for every night except Wednesday at Corbin's. It's only Tuesday and I'm exhausted. Today when I got to work I couldn't stop yawning, drank like two sips of my diry chai and felt awake. ADDICTION? ADDICTION. This is me, living life on lattes.


So our sink is broken at the house. The disposal doesnt work, and the drain will not drain because of it. So only one side of the sink will drain, and the whole kitchen smells. And there are still dishes from Cinco de Drinko in the sink, and I want to wash the crock-pot, but I can't get to the side of the sink that drains to wash it, so it's just sitting, and stinking. :P The urge to move out of the house where people are content to live this way has NEVER EVER been stronger. I just... don't enjoy being at home alot of the time, because it is gross. And I feel like alot of our house-mates just don't care that it's disgusting, and it thoroughly annoys me. Alot. I don't like feeling icky when I'm at home, and I just do when I'm here. August can't come soon enough, I'm so looking forward to a clean house with Shelby and Katrina.

Been in a country music mood lately. I created a Miranda Lambert radio station on my Pandora and it's amazing. I've heard so many of her songs that I hadn't heard before. I freaking love me some Miranda Lambert. 

Rain on the window makes me lonely
And time keeps passing so slowly
The old man sittin' next to me is fallin' asleep
On a Greyhound bound for nowhere.

I mean... really? Yes. Everything the woman writes just hits me, either in that Strong Powerful Woman kinda way, or in the Deep Emotional Heartache kinda way. She's just so real. I want to find out when/if she's touring and go see her. ASAP. Also, I've decided if I ever go out to do karaoke that my song needs to be her "Gunpowder and Lead". Seriously.

Okay. Bed, I have to be at the mall again tomorrow at 8:30, but then I'm off at 11, and home for the whole day. Possibly going to be the most desperately lonely girl and hang out with a guy who I only really like for the physical chemistry and the way he occasionally can make me laugh. Mostly he annoys me, but he wants to hang out, and I might just be that desperate for guy time.... I also might attempt to re-connect with a certain former hook-up who might possibly be related to someone who i may or may not have dated..... Me and my good life choices hard at work here, folks. I need to meet some new people and stop being so lame. :P

Cinco De Drinko, and other epic-ness

CINCO de DRINKO

Last night was our Cinco de Mayo celebration. We invited a handful of people or so over and had a lovely evening. One full of Tequila, Food, Fun, and Joy. There were no overly-drunk events, no major drama, no tears. I made Cafe-Rio Pulled Pork, which was lovely and a huge success. Ally made homemade tortillas and fried ice cream. There was epic amounts of food, copious amounts of liquor, and an abundance of love and friends. All wrapped up nicely with a bow... of sorts... not really. Lol, but still, a good night with happy endings all around I believe.

NEW JOB

I'm working now at Caffe Cafe on Harrison. It's an extension of the coffee shop in the Newgate Mall, but is its own location, and features a full menu of DELISH food. Sandwiches, soup, wraps, salads, AND a full selection of fresh baked goods. Our owner bakes DELICIOUS cupcakes in yummy flavors (today we featured Chai Latte, Strawberries & Champagne, and Pina Colada). I'm really excited about working here, I'm loving learning about the coffee/espresso drinks, and making espresso is too fun. And the people are fun. And even though my manager is a little high-strung and scattered, she's the kindof person who recognizes someone who is willing to work and learn and I feel like after only two days of work she's really trusting of me. She was trusting me on the register my first day, without any supervision really at all. And its nice to work somewhere that when it is slow, it doesnt matter because I'm still making money by the hour. I'll still be at Corbin's through the summer, but as the semester gets closer I'll probably have to cut one or the other way back or out completely.

Okay- more Cinco Photos, just a few. Last night was too good. I want to put it on repeat:

ps- i stole all these pictures from Shelby, she posted them on the facebook. :P

emotionally wrecked, friends, and the Buster-Brown.

blue moon
you saw me standing alone

without a dream in my heart

without a love of my own.

work was hell tonight. I didn't realize being near to him in any proximity would be THAT difficult. but... but the time my shift was over and I made it to my car, I was having trouble breathing and I was fighting back the tears. Once I got home and mentionted to my roommate how difficult the evening was, then the floodgates opened and hello crying. and its just like..... ughhhh. how can ONE PERSON get in under my skin so deeply? I thought i'd been guarding myself carefully enough to prevent that. Obviously not so much.
SO- i drank almost 5 whole bottles of Blue Moon tonight (yum). I'm still floating on a beer buzz and trying, unsuccessfully to push all thoughts of him out of my mind. It's only semi-working.

Jaime Frank came over tonight to drink with me and Ally and Katrina. So nice to spend time with that boy. He's just such a good person, even if he chooses not to show it sometimes. I thoroughly enjoy being around him, and I hope we get more time in before he leaves us for the beautiful land of Sun and Orange Trees- he's attending the University of Florida in the fall. (I've chosen to forgive him for his poor choice in schools. Gators blow, Seminoles all the freaking way!)

Monday marks 1 full year with my Buster-Brown. I can't even imagine dealing with this last year without that boy in my life, he's my baby, my rock, my eternally supportive companion. And, despite his sometimes stubborn and frustrating behaviors, he's the best decision i've ever made. SOOOOO grateful for my baby-dog. I sure as hell didn't rescue him, He rescued me.