The Day Off

Days off are good for catching up on things you have been putting off...

or

if you're me

for NOT cleaning your room

for NOT going to the bank

for NOT going to the financial aid office

for NOT paying school parking fines

but instead

for GOING to the gym

for GOING house hunting

for GOING to souper!salad! for lunch

for GOING to buy a bridesmaid dress

for GOING to browse at barnes and noble

for GOING to smiths to buy veggies and hummus

for LAYING in the backyard and having a picnic

for SMOKING hookah on the newly painted deck as the sun sets

today was a good day. my room is a mess, but i spent the ENTIRE day with one of my favorite people

Katrina Luthi

and we had a grand ol' time,
even if we didnt find a house for us and shelby



ALSO OF NOTE:
I've decided to maybe attempt the Vegetarian thing. Starting yesterday. So far, so good.
I'm cutting out meat products, but holding on to my milk, cheese, eggs, and seafood on occasion.
Also, since my family is going to Maddox for dinner on saturday... I may splurge on some delicious chicken.
The idea is mostly to see how well I can handle it,
and to see if it helps with my Weight Loss goals.

which-

2days straight at the gym

Watching portions (mostly) and eating healthier (mostly)

Stretching more

Skim milk and sugar free in my Coffee

and the only soda consumed has been of the Diet variety.

also, no meat since tuesday night.

 I'm rocking this shit.

and I'm avoiding the scale till Tuesday. We'll see what a week of effort can do. 

I mean, It's fine! *insert hands thrown up in protest gesture here*

:D ^^^ Thats for Landy and Shebby.

But really, it is fine. I'm an emotional wreck 90% of the time

BUT

then Ally and I go to dinner

and Katrina and I drink rum

and Josh is adorable and makes me laugh

and I have a dog, named Buster

and I see a Steph J, and an Alicia, and a Nate Waite while working

and Landon and Shelby and Maggie have a Tea/Ear Piercing/Gelato/SLC date

And I can breathe again.

So really, it is all fine,

even when I'm an emotional wreck.

(but, two older gentlemen at work in the last two days being shocked that i'm single and pondering why some young man hasnt snatched me up... that.... not helpful. grr. oh well.)

well...

its one of those nights.

one of the nights when you feel so withdrawn

and isolated

and insular

and lonely

and pathetic

and stuff.

the house is empty, except for, i think, erica upstairs, and the dogs.

I had a fantastic evening at my grandparents house celebrating Father's day with my daddy and siblings and grandparents.

and then i drove home

and i got all...

bleh.

so i'm in bed

with a cup of coconut-ginger green tea with french vanilla creamer in it

hitting up the interwebs

then reading my book

and hitting up the pillows on my bed.

bleh.

i wonder

i wonder

i wonder why each little bird has a someone

to sing to, sweet things to; 

a gay little love melody.

i wonder

i wonder

if my heart keeps singing, will my song go winging

to someone who'll find me,

and bring back my love song to me?

Just.... watch.

This is Lin-Manuel Miranda backstage at the Tony Awards writing the closing Rap that Neil Patrick Harris did over the credits. Fantastic.

Also, Nikki M. James is my new favorite person (The beautiful woman in the red dress who won for best supporting actress in a musical for Book of Mormon)

i've been thinking

it's time to just grow up.

i need to start paying attention to myself, and my lifestyle, and my actions, and just start acting like the adult I profess to be.

I'm working enough and making enough that I shouldn't have to worry (too much) about my finances, So why I am I? Because I spend more on eating out and unnecessary items than I should.

I weigh more than I want to, and I'm not as flexible or as fit as I'd like to be? Why? Because I drink sugary coffee drinks, and lots of alcohol, and I never work out or buy myself healthy food.

I mean, I havent gone grocery shopping in weeks. WEEKS. and last time I did, i bought alot of frozen, processed foods that arent very healthy.

So, I was inspired by my dearest Shelby and her blog to set just a few summer goals:

1- Stretch EVERY DAY

2- Do something cardiovascular EVERY DAY

3- Keep track of finances, balance checking account weekly.

4- Limit Drinking to Special Events/Gatherings, and limit intake to 2-3 drinks, max. Also, use fat free milk and sugar free flavorings in coffee.

5- Just take care of ME. Just me. Focus on me. If something annoys me, deal with it- either fix it or talk to the person who can. Being passive-agressive is NOT helping me be an adult.

Thats all. Just 5. I'm writing them down by hand as well, and putting them in my phone where I'll see them every day. And we'll see, by the time I move out in August I want to have dropped at least 10lbs, and be more in control and secure in my finances. Fingers crossed, here we go. :)