So, in the aftermath of Finals, Juries, Autitions, I was initially not cast in any productions for the fall semester, though I felt really proud of both my auditions/callbacks. Charm and Lucky Stiff cast lists went up, and I was not on either of them, which I had kindof expected, but in my emotional... distress... I splurged on some new ink:
The original inspiration stems from the television show Firefly, which is one of my favorite shows. Within the context of the show the word 'shiny' is slang for "cool" or "understand?," kindof the way 'savvy' works. I'm obsessed with the show and I've been obsessed with the idea of a tattoo inspired by it for quite some time. In the aftermath I've realized I also really needed something positive and uplifting to keep me going. Also, I realized that 'shiny' can also be a reference to Xanadu, being the muse of the stars and planets is a pretty shiny job. :) I love it, and it makes me happy every time I see it. I got it in red, which looks like henna now that it's healed, and it's not visible onstage unless i'm barefoot and right up close in a black-box situation.
Xanadu was incredible. I made so many new friends, and grew incredibly close to people I've known for a while. There is not a single bad memory associated with the entire experience. I auditioned for Into The Woods at The Grand and was called back for Cinderella, and then something ridiculous happened....
due a number of reasons, there had to be some re-casting done for Charm, and I received a phone call from Tracy Callahan offering me the role(s) of Lydian Emerson/Old Woman/ Italian Woman, no questions asked. I debated for a while, Cinderella is kindof a dream role, but decided that a for-sure offered part was better than a maybe part. Plus it is my last semester at school and I've never had the opportunity to work with Tracy. I'm super excited, and super scared, and so so so ready to get to work.
And now it's the middle of summer break. I'm working and making mediocre money at Corbin's. I've been there for 3 years now and I'm just... ready to move on. I know that my manager trusts and respects me, he knows that I'm good at my job and responsible, and he's INCREDIBLY flexible with scheduling and one of the most understanding bosses when it comes to school/theatre. But the commute to Layton plus the pitiful tips i'm making isn't helping my financial situation and I just really need something closer to home here in Ogden. The tough part is being on a job search when I know that the minute school starts my availability will disappear. It's part of the problem I had with Heidi at Caffe Cafe. Whatever happens, things will work out, but right now I'm just... unsettled.
I decided to go to FL for a week! :) Mikey Hernandez and I booked a flight, stayed at his condo, and mooched off of friends for an INCREDIBLE week in Orlando. I missed Florida so much, it'd been three years since my last visit and it was so so so so so so so so so so so so good to be home. It felt like home, even without having a car, or a job, or being in Kissimmee, it felt like home. And i'm starting to feel like I might need an extended stay- like maybe for a year.... working for the parks and waiting tables and saving money while living in paradise. It's an incredibly alluring idea that I'm considering for after I graduate.
But for now, I'm working, trying to save money, spending time with friends when I have a chance, and wishing someone would call and ask me out for sushi or pizza or even just coffee. I'm... lonely. My house is empty alot, because Shleb is in SLC and Luke is doing Lagoon and in a show... Its difficult to be in this house by myself all the time. And when I'm not busy I feel like i'm a little lost, drifting. Summer is long. I just gotta keep preparing for Charm and reminding myself that I've only got 6 months left of stuck before a whole hallway of doors unlocks for me....