Its raining and I LOVE rain. 

Also, I left my car window down when I left to rehearsal

and my dear friends Trent and Clayton taped newspaper over the opening and saved my carseat.

This makes me happy as well.

Also. I am home from rehearsal by 7:30, with coffee at my side, a dog snuggling next to me, and getting set up to do some renderings for The Tempest. 

But first:
Day 2: Name 3 Legitimate fears you have and why you have them. 

1. Roller Coasters 
   Seriously. This is like... I see one and I get anxious. There is a handful of coaster-type rides that I can tolerate:
   
   ---Rockin' Roller Coaster @ Disneyworld. This ride is COMPLETELY enclosed and in the dark. Which means when I walk up to the ride I can't visualize the insanity about to ensue.---The Wild Mouse @ Lagoon. This ride gives me the tap-it-outs as I stand in line and as it starts, but once we've reached the top, i'm doing alright.---The Jetstar @ Lagoon. I don't breathe on this ride. Not healthy, but I will ride it and not breathe Anyways.These three rides are the only coaster-type rides I have ridden more than once. I have been on other coasters, but each and every one was done with breath held, eyes closed, and full on screams.
   It's the height, mostly, the slow *click*click*click* climb to the top of that first hill, the moment of suspension right before the dead fall towards the ground.... guh. I can't even talk about it. And don't get me started on inversions... upside down and I are not friends. If I can see a ride will put me feet over head... forget it. No bueno. I just can't do it. The exceptions are the two rides up there, and both are tolerable because I don't automatically know I'll be upside down when I approach the ride. Its a visual thing, and my brain stops my feet from getting me in line.
2. Perpetual Solitude
   I am terrified of being alone forever. I don't know where this stems from, but I hate being by myself for too long, and I can't imagine never having someone there to share my life with. I think it's part of why I need to have a dog. Knowing there is always my Buster to come home to makes things bearable sometimes. So I have my Buster, and I hope that one day I'll have someone else to come home to... and I'm terrified that one day I won't have Buster, I won't have a roommate, I won't have a lover... and I'll be alone. And the darkness and emptiness associated with that.... buhh. Its mas no bueno.
3. Losing a Family Member/Very Close Friend
   A little over a year ago I lost my dear friend Shira. This year our friend Andy from Weber passed away. I've never really had to deal with death on that level until then. It was rough, realizing how fragile and brief life is. Then I've been watching my roommate deal with multiple deaths in the last 4 months, and had a moment where I thought someone very close to me might be leaving us as well. Its a wakeup call, and it made me realize how important certain people in my life are. I can't imagine losing one of my siblings, a parent, one of the friends who make me a better person..... I don't know how I would handle it. My roommate has been so strong, at least on the surface, and if it had been me.... I don't think I could do it. I would probably just dissolve into a puddle.

Guh. Emotions. Fears aren't fun, but Its interesting to address the 'whys'. Anyone else afraid of Coasters/Solitary Confinement/Death? What are you guys afraid of?

30 Things, 30 Days.

My fast fact friday thing kinda died. I may do it here and there now and then, but my friend Jennifer is doing this over at her blog and I liked the idea alot. And, since I've been kindof lazy about blogging lately (mostly due to the fact that I'm supposed to be working on school stuff all the time) this might motivate me to blog a bit more. SO:

Day 1: 

List 20 Random Facts about Yourself

1. I love driving. Alot. I one day want to have enough money to just jump in my car and drive and drive for days on the most random spontaneous no-destination-in-particular road trip with my friends.
2. I could live on potatoes. I would be 400lbs, but I could do it.
3. I don't want children. Truth
4. I do want at least 3 dogs at some point, however. I have my Buster. I also want a Pug named Bosco and a Pitt Bull girl named something pretty.
5. I have 3 tattoos and want at least 3 more.
6. Im a big-city kindof girl. Being in the country/anywhere that doesnt have a grocery store at least 5 mins away stresses me out the way a huge bustling city stresses most people out. 
7. I am a pack-rat. I save completely useless things because they might become usefull eventually. I'm working on this.
8. Im a terrible friend. I don't like to make phone calls and I get really anti-social about two weeks a month. I feel guilty about this often, but rarely do anything about it.
9. I love Disney World more than Disney Land. Yes, the Land is the original, but its tiny and the fireworks aren't great. In this instance, bigger IS better. 
10. I'm a TV series junkie. I almost prefer to watch retired series because then I can start at season one and work my way to the end without having to wait a week for a new episode. I have probably 10-15 TV shows that I would willingly buy the whole series of. ( I own all of Will & Grace)
11. My best gay-friend and I made a promise that if we both weren't settled down and married by 35 we would get married just for the benefits. He may not know I was serious about that.
12. Procrastination should be my middle name.
13. My middle name is actually Elizabeth. Making my full name Margaret Elizabeth Goertzen. If that doesn't sound like a 80yr old grandmother in the middle of Europe somewhere, I don't know what does. 
14. I'm a Capricorn, and a Rabbit in the chinese zodiac.
15. Singing and theatre make me happier than anything else.
16. I like country music. I do. So sue me. Brad Paisley puts on one of the best concerts anywhere.
17. I am thoroughly convinced that, given the chance, Josh Groban and I could fall in love and live quite happily together.
18. I was/am a HUGE fan of *NSYNC. Own all their albums, know all their full names, used to know all their birthdays/favorite colors/favorite foods.... I was more than obsessed as a teenager.
19. I still own my favorite stuffed bear from when I was 2. She's on my bed right now.
20. This has successfully prevented me from doing anything productive. Oops.

So yeah. I'll probably miss a day or 3 or 5 here and there with this. But I'd like to make it through the whole list of things. Finals are next week, meaning I'll be done with the semester on Wednesday and then I'll have time to just be a bum and blog whenever. :P

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